[06 Dec 2009|06:35pm] _lothlorian_ um...long time no update? It's time for exams this semester and I'm sitting in my freezing ass apartment on the computer haha. I actually only have one exam. HA! How did that happen? I thought I was going to be super stressed being in the teaching program and all, but nope, only one exam!! I have to meet for my actual exam times but I think just to get projects back. This is been one tough semester for me! I had a lot going on, starting fresh in the teacher ed program I had two midtiers, one in an elementary classroom and another in a high school classroom, for at least five weeks I was going to an elementary school on Mondays for 2 hours and a high school on Friday for 3 hrs. It made for a pretty crammed schedule!! Not to mention I had to teach at least 2 lessons and write journals about each time there. Btw, midtiers are basically observation hours but I have to be a lot more involved and like I said, I have to teach 2 lessons, and I'm evaluated by the host teacher. However, this semester has just been a load of reality landing on my shoulders. I've been creating unit plans, curriculum plans, lesson plans, discipline plans, management plans, etc etc....all the sorts that come with teaching, not to mentiong being in the actual field. Even so, the more I learn about art education, the more I realize it is fitting me! But I'm still unsure whether or not elementary or high school fits me better. As far as things are going with Joe...things are going great! He's so amazing and I really feel in love. He's just the kind of person that never really talks about his feelings. I know that he cares about me just by his actions, but I really want the verbal confirmation, is that weird?? I want to be sure about our future, but without knowing how he truly feels about me, I am so unsure. I'm at that point now that I am wondering what is going to happen, he plans on leaving after this year and I'm not...do I just ride it out? But I don't want to just be the "ride" I want to be more than that for once. Why do I always meet boys who want something more than me??? I'm not letting these things bother me to a huge extent, because for one thing, the end of the school year is a little ways away and for another thing, I'm trying to be a better type of girlfriend than I have in the past, one that is not super clingy or annoying or worried or psychotic. I am trying to just breath and let things just happen. ~*T@r@*~ 1 comment|post comment

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