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[11/7/05 @ 7:30pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Only wanna be with you - Hooootie ] Blah I hate being sick it's the worst most boring terrible feeling in the world. I hate hate hate hate hate hate it. urgh. With a little love, and some tenderness We'll walk upon the water We'll rise above this mess With a little peace, and some harmony We'll take the world together We'll take 'em by the hand 'Cause I've got a hand for you 'Cause I wanna run with you Yesterday, I saw you standing there Your head was down, your eyes were red No comb had touched your hair I said get up, and let me see you smile We'll take a walk together Walk the road awhile, 'cause 'Cause I've got a hand for you I've got a hand for you I loove hootie and the blowfish <3 They have to be one of my all time favs. I have nothing to write about. but I heart jdb =) <3 LeaveOne

You were the last good thing about this part of town [11/4/05 @ 6:40pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Where is your boy tonight ] ( Wow Im laaaamme ) <3 LeaveOne

whoot, Im lame. [11/1/05 @ 10:15pm] [ mood | love this song ] [ music | Hey there Delilah- Plain white T's ] ( I loove surveys :) ) <3 LeaveOne

I can go with the flow anywhere I wanna go... [10/30/05 @ 5:24pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Hey there Delilah- Plain white T's ] Welll I probably never ever write in this because I just dont ever feel like it. My birthday kinda blew minus school I loved it at school because my friends did a bunches of stuff for me and then that night everything went downhill. haha oh well Im over it. Football sundays are saddly over or at least on a break right now. I already miss them but I just didnt have time today to have one. awe saddness. Me and Reb probably cried because of it. Im really happy right now eee! Me and Lissa-Mo-Ree had mucho fun last night just being waaay stupid together -TOOOCOO BELLL!! -Urrghghhhhuurrgghhh -Why do I have fwends like this urgghhh!? -My cell phone can beat your cell phone in a race bitch -CHINESE SPEAKERS!! -Plucking some eye brows hahhaa -We dont make discusting messes or anything ;) -Im dumb in the cinamin roll department -My abs are sore from laughing I ABSOLUTLY L-O-V-E MY BESTEST FRIEND EVER!! I hope I get to play marco polo wif my favorite boy today :) That would make my whooole weekend. <3 LeaveOne

We could leave.. [10/19/05 @ 10:44pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Comfortable - John Maaayer ] ( You are everything I want ) <3 LeaveOne

[10/16/05 @ 9:31am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Because of You- Kelly Clarkston ] Go to Google.com and type in "(your name) needs" don't forget the quotes and post the top five funniest results! 1.Amber needs an owner that would spend a lot of time with her and is willing to give her the discipline she needs. 2.You have to encourage her to get up and move. Amber needs to go to home with carpeted floors. 3.going out blowjob - before going out amber needs to suck cock 4.Amber has been waiting since 12/01 . . . 5.Amber needs support for all her basic living functions, including personal care for bathing, toileting and feeding. Haha mine arn't that great but ohh welp : ) Well this weekend has been really fun so far! So that's waaay coool I'd have to say : ) AND TODAYS FOOTBALL SUNDAY!! Friday: Me, Lissa and John went to the game awe I love my best friends. Annnnd we lost haha go figure. But after the game we went with BHardy to wait for BCarr at his car ahha. So we decided on going to a haunted house. First me Lissa and Hardy went to Burger King because Carr had to stop at home so we waiting for him there then we all headed over to "Cell Block 13" ohh man. We waited for forever but finally after forcing Lissa not to back out we went in. Wasnt too bad at first and with all the guys in our group cracking jokes it made it funnny. But this one guy jumped out at me and it wasnt even scary so I called him an idiot. Opps bad move on my part.. he followed me through the rest of the haunted house and was like grabbing onto my arm and getting in my face going "amber dont let go amber hang on or I'll get you amber dont let go" and it freaked me out so bad omg. Just think of some crazy guy who looks half dead and half insane grabbing you and saying your name in a haunted house. Yea I cried. Me and Lissa were screaming at him because he was holding onto Lissa too so after "GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME" didnt work Lissa kicked him and I punched him in the face. Hahaha. He went away after that. We didnt even see the crainsaw part at the end I wouldnt look hahaha. After the haunted house we went to Meijers because Carr wanted a CD but the electronics thing was closed so we left and went to the High School and we were looking at the football field and wwe were going to go in and the fence was like already open and broken into and we saw some guys in all black peek around the corner so Hardy and Carr chased them down. We think they were bums but who knows because one of them dropped their bag and Carr said he thinks it was full of pop cans. But who knows. Then we went over at Pumpkin patch and just hung out it was a waaay fun night : ) Saturday: Came home from being lazy at Lissas house all day. Hung around the house feeling sorry for myself for a while, I hate sweetest day. Then went ove rto Kails house with a few other people that was fun me and Lissas kicked each others ass's but I definalty take the gold for that one. Then everyone left becides me Kail and Lissa and we went to Johnnys, then Lissa left and went back to Kails to go to bed and then really left after we got back. Me and Kail hung out there, I lost a bet haha. ;) Johnny stood on the fire like an idiot and Jason almost fell in it. Jay showed up with a car full and guess who was in the front seat? That'd be Joe and I haven't ever had anyone ever give me a look as dirty as that one. So me and Kail went back out to the fire and hung out. Stayed there until like 2 or so then we snuck them in till 430 (Johnny Jason and Derek) It was good times. : ) TODAYS FOOTBALL SUNDAY AT LISSAS BE THERE AROUND ONE OR YOU DEFINETLY SUCK!!! <3 LeaveOne

booo [10/15/05 @ 4:15pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | so impossible - dashboard ] I hate this stupid day. <3 LeaveOne

so you sailed away... [10/9/05 @ 11:19pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | The best I've ever Had - Gary Allen ] Into a grey sky morning... well thanks Zach for telling me this song rocks because I looove it!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!! everything been going well lately I have nothing really to say actually as I never do. Just that I loove my friends and Im so happy right now just hanging out with them. And other people are making me so much happier. Yesterday I played "front yard fottball" with Kail, Lissa, Woody, Woods, Vohwinkle, Richie, Mario and Marty and it was the most fun I've had in a long time : ) I loove my friends. Gooodnight <3 <3 <3 LeaveOne

Auuuuudrey : ) [10/4/05 @ 9:14pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Photograph - Nickleback ] Take the quiz: "Which famous movie kiss are you?" Breakfast At Tiffany's You are the Breakfast At Tiffany's kiss! Yay, go figure!! I looove Audrey shes my all time favorite!! I puked just a minute ago I dont feel good at all, and I feel like Im going to die, blah. today was a very bad day. <3 LeaveOne

Everything is not broken, but so much is.. [9/30/05 @ 2:51pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Jack and Diane- John Cougar Mellencamp ] Well, I have been in a shitty ass moood lately. Everyones just being weird towards me and its gay fag wad.ohh welllp. The game went good last night but I have a good feeling we'll get in a lot of trouble because we're not suppost to have fun while cheering. Awe my dad just now called, and he made my day : ) just called to see how I was because he's heading up north for the weekend and he left me money even though my mom'll be here. haha he's cute. I <3love<3 him times ten!! But anyways, schools gay but I did exceptionally well on my Alg 2 test yay for that. keep forgetting to read for adas. opps thats no good so I failed that quiz today. Uhh wrote my first story in newspaper I suppose. Mir looked way cute today with her sweats ans high heels. haha. I love that girl! boys = confussing yucky sad stupid idiotic loserish mess. URGH. <3 LeaveOne

Yea, I'd have to say I'm in love with him. [9/26/05 @ 9:11pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Hands Down - Dashboard. ] Welllll breaking news, Im madly in love with Zach Boros and I wanna be his forever =P haha it's funny how we're just freinds : ) ahha that blows. At least he holds my hand at school. well long time no update. lettts see... Friday was soo fun me and Morg rocked our #1 fan t-shirts, I think alissa rocked at life. The assemebly was fun but not as fun as the one on monday. Stayed after school had some pizza and other stuff made awesome posters and went to the parade in our escalade. Lissa looked soooo pretty. and soo did everyone else, I looooved loved loved Brittney Little's dress it was soo gorgeous!! We lost our homecoming game and it was way dumb, but we did have a sweet mascot and definetly the best band ever yea they were goood entertainment. went to brittanys afterwards and hung out until Josh got there and theen I went home because I was way tired. Saturday, got up like maybe 15 minutes before my hair appointment fell back asleep in the car and got there and Kirsten and Kirsten were doing their hair done toooo, and as I was getting finished, Kelly Self came in too. After it was all done I went home put some make up on, ate some food, put the rest of my make-up on got in my dress took some pictures, chris got there and we took more pictures, went to Kails, took even more pictures walked across the yard to britanies and guess what?? mooore pictures, then we went out to eat it was soo good minus I had to go in the bathroom and unzip my dress before I died of sofocation. went back to Kails and took MORE PICTURES!! The we went to the dance and cut because the line was a mile long and this bitch from Powers was like I do believe you cute and you need to move to the end of the line now, and I was like "Excuse me but do I even know you? wait do you even go to our freaking school? so shut the heck up!!" I went insane damn bitches. The dance was a blast and a half omg it was so fun. I LOVED IT, waaay better then last year. Then after I went home to change then went to Josh's it was alright I guess, left and went to Ryans and David was so drunk he kept me cracking up like no other it was great, then I got some Mickey Dz wooooo! then came back and went to sleeep. Woke up and the boys took me home. took a shower and went to the Renisance again. I got a Henna. Its cooool, hung out with chris who works there haha I love my twin brother : ) Then it started to rain and we came home. Then Joey came over and we hung out and watched football and the simpsons haha he always know how to cheer me right up. Then school today and a amazingly easy practice yessss!!! Got home and my Best friend Johnnnnn Wrizight came over and we went on an adventure. First to Ryans and found my earring after searching I was so excited I thought I lost it forveer and my mom was so upset. Then came home ate then went to Banana Boat to find it was closed for the season gaaaay. So we settled for Mickey Dz ice cream which is always amazing. Borught Lissa-Mo-Ree a Fru-gurt =P parfait, she looked happy poor things sick. Then we went and visited Justin R. Then we went to Wal*Mart. We were looking for a sweet CD case and found the coolest digital camera ever and bought it and Im getting one tomorrow. woo hoo!!!! then we went to Zachs to visit : ) that made my whole life. Now Im here writing a freaking novel about to go watch Desserts By Jessica Simpson on QVC so me and mom can buy good stuff from our idol!! loooovies. <3 LeaveOne

I only wanna loove you... =\ [9/22/05 @ 8:43pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | shake it offff ] I'm infatuated with you... well homecoming is upon us and it rocks about hardcore style :) haha I loove it. Our float got done in record time, we're in second place and I have dressed up everyday this weekk EEE!! I'd have to say one day I was pretty much madonna 8) Mmm, well I really like this boy, and I don't really know if he know's it or not. But I want him to, because I can't ever stop thinking about him, wooo for butterflies, it's crazy. I want him to be with me, but first I gotta work up to that. Lord give Katrina victums lords speed to get out of Texas, I would hate for them to have to go through the same thing twice, and also help the people who are in Texas evacuate. Damn you Rita. I'm simply craazzy about you.. Game got cancelled today due to gigantic thunder storms ahh they were mucho scary, yea theres a little mexicano for yas, 'mucho' I think I heard it on a taco bell comercial.. I was way pissed that it got cancelled, for once I wanted to cheer.. Im way bored, today was waay boring, nothing exciting happened, and I don't like that. Tomorrow shall better HOMECOMING whooot! me and Morgs and gunna look sweet in our #1 fan tee's. I hope the rain stays far away for homecoming, it would blow if it rained for the 18th year in a row. I don't like when it rains in the fall, it just makes everyone lazzzy.. Baby, notice me.. <3 <3 LeaveOne

[9/18/05 @ 7:24pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | let the bodies the floor ] EVERYTHING IS WONDERFUL :) I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND MY LIFE!!! HOMECOMING WHOOOOO!! Float building is everyday after school from after school till like 6 I think Im going everyday after practice everyone should come the juniors already got us beat in the hallway competition, trust me theres is amazing. But our float can be waay good too, PARTICIPATE!! Please thanks. K Bye!! <3 LeaveOne

what's the use? [9/17/05 @ 12:15am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | The dance - Garth ] I don't even know anymore, I just want to run as far away from here as I can. Everyone minus a select few are different. I feel so sad all the time and I have no one to talk to ever. I try but to people my problems are little pieces of shit compared to theirs and I guess that I just complain too much and everything else. I wish I could just find someone anyone who like just cares. I had one of those and everything was good with everything and all I wanted to do is be on my own. That is one of the biggest mistakes I have ever made. Im losing everything, my friends, my best friend, my heart, my love.. myself. I don't know who I am anymore, this isnt me. At all. I want my life back. I want everything from last year back. But then I don't because I don't even know if I was happy then. I know I've changed but I just feel like everyone hates me, theres just so much built up and no one to let it go with. I can't speak without being corrected about my own self or being wrong about something according to other people. My freinds act to me as if they dont know who I am. I hate everything, I yelled at my best friend today and I feel bad about it and I even cried in public but I don't think I was wrong about what I said, she tells me the 'truth' all the time. So I just told her the truth I suppose I shouldn't have said anything. But what's done is done. I hate myself, I just wish there was someone I could run to and they just hold me and listen and care and love me. But Im just being selfish and wanting what I can't have. I hate everything everything everything. Im going to go sleep for 30 hours. I decided upon that. Thinking of how Im going to apoligize. urgh Im an idiot. <3 LeaveOne

I Love Ferdinand <33 [9/16/05 @ 6:03pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Only wanna be with you - Hooootie ] Welll I haven't updated in about ehhh eleven years. Haha, wow how about this morning nicole called me and I thought it was like 530 and I was soo outta it and I was like "brian lives eleven years away.." yes I was tired and said really random things but ya know random = love. Yea but when she called it was like 620 yeaa, I was running late after that because I kept dozin off in the shower. It was real neat, then Nicole came after I didnt thinnk she was and I forgot my phone and money and everything else I coulda forgot. It was real neat. Theeen I got to school and kept having some shitty luck today, but Adas's class was really fun and we talked about the weirdest stuff haha and Molly wrote me a note on my paper :-p it was cute. I adopted my baby Ferdinand <3 the other day. I absolutly love him he's a little snail.. well the shell of a snail haha, yes and my husband (Tallman) and sister and Brother in-laws(Kail and Nick) have a way cute family. Our babies *Toucher, Ferdinand, Jaques and Nicolas II* I loove it hhahaha, damn french class it rocks. Umm I'd just like to say I LOVE KEARSLEY JV FOOTBALL they have to be my favorite team ever. The beat Carman and Flushing I'd have to say Marty is amazing and Kyle Woods, Im his number one fan I love that kid he's my favorite. As well as many other football players who are amazing that I loove so dearly with my heart. KHS VARSITY FOOTBALL: Keep your heads up boys I loove you and so does everyone in the district of kearsley : ) HOMECOMING WEEK NEXT WEEK IM SO EXCITED!! Me and Kyle B are definetly gonna represent the wonderful class of '08 in our game assembly! haha Im so excited. weeelp. Later <3 LeaveOne

ANDYY!!! [9/12/05 @ 7:02am] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Andy Milanokis Theme ] OMG MY JOURNALS SOOO COOOLLLL!!!! <3 LeaveOne

Now she's left cleaning up the mess he made.. [9/5/05 @ 6:07pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Better Together - Jack Johnson ] Wellll I haven't updated in a long while. I mean like actually updated with something worth while so this should be prettty long I'd have to say. Hmm but where should I start? Hah, well I just read my last entry of where I said something about my life ohh god it was soo long ago.. well here goes a good novel. School & Stuff: Umm a couple fridays ago was the first football game. Me and Lissa went together and matched in our sweet Kearsley football T-shirts that we bought an hour before the game : ) They ended up losing but it was such a blast it was okay. After the game I went with Kail, Mike and Lissa to her house to get my stuff and Lissa stayed there because she was gonna hang out with Mitch. First we headed to McDonalds because a billion people were up there and freaking Johnny stole my Mt. Dew amp and gave to to Aaron and he ran off with it and I got really mad then we hung out there for a while with people. After that we went over to Britanie Rountrees for about 15 minutes and I discovered where Aaron was so I could go make him pay for my wonderful energy drink. So we headed to Meisers which was a bit funner then Britanies. I found Aaron and after a long discussion he gave me my two dollars ;) We hung out there for a long while, me and Jason danced and stuff it was fun. Then we went over to the Sultmans no one was really there that me and Kail knew becides Jason H, Shavannah, Jesi and us four (me Kail Mike and Johnny). Me and Shananana went to the bathroom that was an adventure, Greg whom was there too took us. I like Greg hes so nice, too bad he left today : ( Well me Kail and Freel left there and went back over to Meisers. Me and Kailey sat by the frie with a few friends whom kinda pissed me off a bit and then we left and went back to Britanies to get kicked out because everyone had to leave. T Fry said he was having people over so we went there and I dont think I had more fun anywhere else I loved it. I <33 Travis : ) Then we went back to Lissas house and stayed in the camper. David ended up coming over because he was bored. So me Kail Mike and Dave went to McDonalds haha went through the drive threw twice. Then when we were going back to Lissas we had a piggy back race mike and Kail ran into a tree then Mike got stuck in a bush trying to jump over haha it was so funny i almost peed myself. Then I basically stayed up all night until dave and Mike and Kailey left and I did Lissas chores because I couldnt sleep. School started the monday after booo! My classes are okay I guess but nothings as fun as it was last year. But Lissas got her lunch changed and now has it with me : ) Im so excited. My lockers the gayest locker in the school and I need a new one anyone wanna help me out with that one?? haha. I loove how much closer Im getting with people though it makes me happy times 1000. Umm another football game came and went. they lost horribly and I hated every second of it, I even cried. that was about the gayest game in the world minus getting to see Jack whomm I love with every beat of my heart and miss him even more then that. N o w   t h i s   w e e k e n d  : ) Friday: Wellll I ended up hanging out with Brittany, and we went to Micky Dz with Billay, Jesse and Alan :) Then after we drove around then finally were wanted at T Frys. Travis's was a bunch of fun like always I enjoyed it highly. I hung out with Joshy for a while then he took me home because my mom was being gay wad that night. Saturday: My mom left for up north whoo hoo!! so I went to Nicoles because her mom and dad also went up there with my mommy. So we had the house to ourselves. Me and Nicole decided to go pick up Lissa and we went to go find Molly a fish which took about forever but we did end up finding one. We dropped sisa off and then went back to Nicoles. Barbie cameover shes a whole lot of fun. then we went out to this kids house and it was pretty losery, went back to Nicoles and Molly and Marcus came over. Me Molly and Barbie left. haha never laughed so hard in my life when I was with those two. We went to Taco bell ahhaa great order there and then to 7-11 where O left a slurpee on the car and it went all over it so we went to the car wash. It was really fun, then back to Nicoles where we hung out and had some fun. Went out to a genesse party and had a few fights ;) BJ blows no pun intened ;) Then to Archies and Brooks dropped that shit ahhahaa it was hillarious. and pretty sweet too. Sunday: Went home went shopping with Lissa then went back over Nicoles haha. Barbie picked me up and we headed over there. Marcus and Josh came over and we went and rented a movie, came back and watched it. Then Justin Brooks came over and me and josh went out and swung on the tire swing then everyone else joined us. We hung out out there and then everyone went inside besides me and josh and we layed out there and talked for a long while, came in side and like everyone feel asleep becides me josh and marcus we plotted to ceran wrap Justin and Barbie to the chair but never did. then I fell asleep woke up and josh justin and marcus left : ( we went to bed. Monday: Came home and cleaned, watched some TV and I need to do my homework, my mom just got home which is fun. Im hungry and want El Charritos too though :-p Well theres my novel sorry if it was boring if you read the whole thing :-p Loove you gaters. <3 LeaveOne

gay [8/31/05 @ 3:02pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Pon de replay ] haha I dont update becaus ei dont really care to much School's gay. They made it gay. I hate it now. Freedom? none. FAG TEACHERS, becides Puffer and Adas I <33 those classes. <3 LeaveOne

Being Bored : ) [8/26/05 @ 1:05pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Love soon - John Mayer ] ( Survey thinger ) <3 LeaveOne

Wishing upon you, a star. [8/21/05 @ 7:28pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | You and Me - Lifehouse ] This song never ever gets old. You and Me by Lifehouse = Love. Well I haven't updated in a while. Honestly can't give you a day to day. But I'll think of things to tell ya about. Last night I went to Josh Bertasso's moms wedding. Hahaha it was sooooo much fun minus the big Lurch guy pervert that told me and Nicoles moms that we were hott and kept hitting on us. He was gross he looked like a freaking drunken burn out loser ass hole which he was. Then Luke came and joined me, Josh and Nicole. It was a waay fun night. And Molly joined us also. Been hanging out with Chris which has been fun. <3 <3 He makes me happy. Me and Kirsten accidently died her hair purple but she getting it fixed after Aubreys mom tried and fixed it.. she helped but it still was well purple.. Tonight Im doing nothing due to certain plans falling through and me turning down one, because Im scared. Yea Im going to admit it. Call me <3 <3 LeaveOne

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